November 27th, 2012
|07:20 pm - Youtube Dump|
Once again, putting some of my youtube playlist up here. I wish youtube would stop deleting videos from my list without reminding me what they were. :P This took way too much time.
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September 12th, 2012
|11:02 pm - projects|
I'm in Ireland, between Galway and Limerick, taking care of three kids while their parents work, in a tiny town called Liscannor. So far, I have found nothing to do, but I have my first full day off tomorrow, so maybe I'll find something.
Hmm, it's been a while since I posted. Rural Ireland with three kids wasn't for me, so I came back to London. Been pretty directionless, but recently my sister has come over and gotten me going to the London hackspace. And I'm thinking more of doing art with various materials. Currently, I've got four computer fans that I want to turn into hot air balloon steering mechanisms. Perhaps also using this stuff: http://fimo.com/FIMOair_air_hardening_modelling_clay, and maybe some aluminium, since it's light and easy to find. And an arduino, which is a circuitboard type thing with a programmable chip on it.
I also want to make some musical robots. Here's some entertaining instructions for making a customized music box: http://www.unity303.com/musicbox/ and a little music box kit: http://www.thinkgeek.com/product/8f7f/ I'd love to create a tiny one of these:
So that's what I'm doing.
May 27th, 2012
|03:27 pm - Choices|
Just reading this depressing post by a so-called feminist attacking transgender as something doctors have been recommending to gay people to keep them from attacking the gender power structure. Complete and total bullshit, of course. She's speaking at the Radfem 2012 conference in July, which completely excludes transpeople... heard about it through my friend who is a crossdresser.
Thbbt. I understand that the possibility of having more than two genders or being able to change one's "sex" is threatening to women-only spaces. But y'know, outright denying that we have a legitimate existence that has always been there and always will be, and saying that we're being misguided by people in white coats who want to sterilize us... she obviously knows nothing about trans people whatsoever and feels like she has the right to tell us what our experiences are. Me, I've never been encouraged by a doctor to transition! Hah!
Anyway, two nice articles about being who you really want to be.
I need to get back to being a feminist, though... the day before yesterday a plumber was explaining slowly and clearly to me how a seal works, and then as soon as 0olong came home, he went into obscure terminology that obviously anyone with a penis would understand. Tired of feeling like my life options are squeezed by my gender identity. Remembering how much easier it was living as a man, too bad I was depressed and kept wanting to be feminine. Maybe I should go for chest surgery. I dunno.
I'm going to Ireland in a week or so, to take care of three kids for a month or more. Hooray.
April 24th, 2012
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March 5th, 2012
|11:10 pm - life|
Having finally admitted to myself that modelling can be a legitimate job... even if um, it's not world-shattering, it probably pays well... I embarked upon trying to get signed by an agency. Got three interviews, only one yes, but they wanted me to pay £250 for a professional photoshoot. So I'm kind of putting that one on the backburner for now. However, I did get some pretty pictures out of the whole thing http://www.flickr.com/photos/77881645@N00/sets/72157629112788106/ and take part in a presidentially themed photoshoot looking for an androgynous looking person http://www.flickr.com/photos/77881645@N00/sets/72157629477672175/
I now have a blog about bad music: http://malbonamuziko.blogspot.com and I'm thinking of doing an illustrated/technological collage of Gödel Escher Bach.
And looking for an acceptable job, having realized that I'm probably not going to get my CELTA certification until June. At the moment I'm bucketing for a kind of dodgy charity, and on housing benefit, and doing housework to appease the Murrays who I live with and make my debts smaller... the charity work is difficult, since it involves standing in one place for some hours in all kinds of weather. But I usually end up cheerful. Maybe it's all the vitamin D I'm absorbing.
Current Mood: cheerful
February 15th, 2012
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February 10th, 2012
|11:35 pm - depression|
I am really really shocked by the level of mental health care in this country. It's extremely low to non-existent. I miss, as I was just telling 0olong, my touchy-feely days of American therapy. Sometimes you just need some goddamned sympathy.
I just saw a doctor who recommended I try a month off of antidepressants and see how I feel, because I was experiencing insomnia on them. Now my emotions feel thick and slow, like they're moving through water. That's what it's like, I was gliding over the surface of my depression before, but now I'm diving in head first. Hopefully I can get over this... but I doubt it, since my mother and most of my aunts and grandmother have had depression. Oh well, here I go. :P
Current Mood: tired